A real party question!!!?

Okay went to a party and got really crunk wink wink you know what that means...anyhow i usually one of the cool people i guess you could say at a party you know not to be y but usually ends up that way bu the end of the night, but the other night some bullish happend and i kinda ended looking pretty gay, i was gonna fight this dude over a turn of beer pong and i was so retarted drunk and faded while talking ish to dude i kinda backed down cause if i got i probly would of went into coma or some ****, so whats some opinions on the situation , the homies had my back but now i feel kinda gay,,,any responces and views on this is appreciated! thanks!